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Life is going to hand you lemons. That’s a horrible analogy. I like lemons. Okay, life is going to hand you cheese. Oh, wait. I’m the only one who hates cheese. Life is going spit in your mouth and pee on your pillows. That whole “grin and bear it” attitude seems to be really hard to muster, doesn’t it.
Having mostly recovered from my magical affair with a stomach flu, I was looking forward to going to work tomorrow. That’s when I realized that I’m only working four days this week. How is it that I max out my weekly hours, yet only work four d– Sweet mercy… It’s a ten hour shift. They put me – ME – their loyalest employee on a ten hour shift. Now a lot of you are saying “suck it up. I work 4 jobs, have two majors, and I’m raising seven kids, two of which aren’t even mine!” My only rebuttal to that would be something like “good for you.”
In all seriousness, I consider myself extremely fortunate. I have maxed out my weekly hours. Hurray! I will get a nice paycheck for the first time in several months. Huzzah! And just in time for some last minute holiday shopping! Hurfluffal! That being said, I have these moments where I just can’t stand my job. And allow me to tell you why:
I work in retail. During this season especially, people suck. They are rude, stressed, angry, and all-around-stupid and that have a profound effect on me. I find myself having to deal with customers who demonstrate a crappy part of American society that I would love to avoid. And at minimum wage, I don’t find the brutal torment they put me through to be worth the pay. For an idea of what I deal with on a daily, if not hourly basis, click here. In a nutshell, this I hate it. Customer service has been my job for over 5 years and it’s been draining the happy right out of me. I know I don’t have the worst job in the world and I know that I should be grateful. I am. I could work somewhere far worse. Like the food industry. But the grass is always greener, the crap is always browner, and the sugar is always sweeter. Right?
Life is hard and crap happens. We have to do things we don’t like; things we hate. Hey. Take a deep breath. Right now. Take a deep breath. Let it out. Now do it again. Imagine that the air rushing into your lungs is a calming, cool breeze and as you exhale, nasty smoke and exhaust from anger is being blown away. Start thinking of the reasons you have to do it. Now turn those reasons of “have-to’s” into “want-to’s”. I have to go to work tomorrow for 10 freakin hours. I have to go earn money for 10 hours. I want to have money to buy my family gifts this year. I want to have money to save up for a new camera. I want to have money so I can break away from this job and never have to do customer service again. Ever. EVER. WOO! I’m PUMPED! YEAH! LET’S GO KISS SOME CUSTOMER’S A—!!!
Too extreme for you? Then you aren’t trying hard enough. You don’t have to sit there in a crappy mood. Attitude is everything. If you can, put on some music that really makes you happy. Dance, sing, jump for joy for ten minutes and then get back to it, humming your favorite song and only letting the feeling of that music swarm through your mind. If you can’t use music, use memories. Think back to a time when you were really happy and just feel that. Don’t feel the “oh, I wish I was there right now” crap because that’s the opposite of what you want to do. Think instead of how wonderful it felt to be there. Think only of that feeling until you actually feel it. Still not working for you? Look up methods of changing your attitude on the internet. You’d be astounded how many resources are available to you if you know where to look.
It’s never to late to stop what you’re thinking, what you’re feeling, and make a difference right now. If you’re at rock bottom, if you’re at the end of your rope, if you’re dangling by a thread, remember that you can change that. You might need help. I certainly do. I have to listen to music or meditate for 10-15 minutes. Know this simple truth: you’re not alone. You’re going to be fine. Just take a deep breath. You’re still here. You’re still you. You might feel broken, shattered, weak, lonely, etc etc etc. But I see you. I see your potential. I see your power. It only takes a glance or two before I realize how important and powerful a person is or can become. I may not know you, but I know your potential. Be brave, fellow pedestrians on this road of life. Be strong. Be courageous. Stand up to yourself. Tell yourself that you deserve to be happy and that you can get through this pile of homework, this queue of crappy customers, or this new workout and that you’re going to do it with style.
I’m proud of how far you’ve come and how far you’re going to go. You just have to grin and bear it a little longer.
Remember: if you’re going to dream, dream BIG!!!
PS. This is my Be Happier! Playlist on YouTube. If I’m ever having a really really hard time changing my attitude, I go here.